Same

Was the same today but I had sugar yesterday at a bday party so I suppose I should say I'm lucky to not see a gain! My fasting gluclose was 81 which I was very surprised at but I think thats good. Haven't done my 1 & 2 hour yet, I just are. Ill try to post tomorrow to see if there was a delay in weight gain but I got a whole day thing so we shall see!

update
Fasting 81
1 hour pp 91
2 hour pp 83

Seems like my sugar is under control

5/20/2011

170.5
-1
Fasting gluclose 88
1hr pp 84
2hr 92

Omg isn't that cool? I know I went over my calories yesterday some but im down anyway awesome! Hopedfully I will get all 3bloods in today last night I forgot the one hour and the 2 hour was 102 it would of been nice to compare.

After first full day with fat

171.5
Same


That being said I retained water I know it cuz I didn't pee nearly enough for the amount I drank so I'm not worried yet! My fasting glucose was 83, I think thats good but I'm not quite sure, have my endo today so hopefully I'm getting somewhere.

So I'm kind of disappointed in the endo, first of all he wrong do the lipil, said it was unneeded and insurance wont cover anyway and thats that. He did give me a glucose moniter saying he wanted me to use a good one and didn't feel the one I ordered was. Told me insurance would cuz of my pco but he wont give script until blood tests come back for the strips, so grrr. He sent the blood right to the lab so idk what he even ordered nice huh?

Well this is day two of adding fat, felt pretty good today no real bad hunger just at the appropriate time, I did end up closer to 900 calories cuz I was eating on the fly with work and dr but no sugar of any kind which to the original sweet tooth here is amazing. Not peeing alot again don't know whats up with the water retention I think I'm drinking enough? Going to do my 1 and 2 hour blood tonight so I get my 3 in today so ill update.

I've lost count

So I didn't get to posting yesterday and need to update after my scary off protocol weekend I didn't weigh until yesterday which now I'm thinking I should of, I know I went up and mondays number was probably high but what can you do I didn't so moving on heres what I had Tuesday
173
-5.5 from load

And today
171.5
-1.5
-7 from load

We are going the right way now but I got to admit its troubling to know had I skipped that night out how much lower it could be! Can't change it so might as well suck it up... It is what it is! So I've been reading some new info at sugarfreegoodies dot wordpress dot com (it won't show as a link idk) and its very impressive, also hugely confusing to me still as I'm trying to sort through it all. I have pco and hypothyroid and I'm suspecting that the fact that I've been on metformin so long is the reason why hcg works for me in the first place. I haven't been tested since I originally went on it for insulin resistance. When my endo at the time put me on it they were just starting to find out that it helped pco and what landed me in his office to begin with was the fact that I wanted kids and knew there was something very wrong with my body. At that time the internet was just getting popular and I started digging for answers, I wasn't about to be satisfied with "well you might not have kids" then I found that there was some luck giving women merformin and I begged and he said no, then I pleaded and still the answer was no we just dont know enough. So I printed everything I could find about it and brought it in and finally he said "ok we will test you and see if your insulin resistant but I'm only giving it to you if you are." Well I was but just barely he said and wrote the script with I stern "we will try this but not for long" Boy was that hard, there was no er then so you had to go on it slow and man did it make me sick! Months of being nauseous and tmi but my intestines oh my! Within a month I got tom, which came on its own a few times a year if I was lucky, I never ovulated because of the pco. I didn't get regular right away but slowly life became more normal and the acne that I battled forever went away. I WAS NEVER GOING OFF THIS DRUG...NEVER! That endo left the practice and over the years I fought hard to keep my miracle but I won, I even refused to go off during pg due to the high m/c rate and odds of on ges diabetes, I signed a few papers on that let me tell you! What troubles me now is my daughter, 50/50 odds of her having pco, those arent good and I already know in my heart she does, I can see it even though shes only 8. It scares me bad because what if shes worse than me, what if she is one of the ones who weighs 300 plus and can't loose even starving. I dont want that for her. I'm more armed with knowledge then my mom ever was but that doesn't mean I can stop it. My gyn told me last year when I went on the pill I could go off the met cuz the pill would make the pco dormant, hmmmm now that doesn't compute and sure shows how little they still dont know. Metformin will be my companion for life, I firmly believe if its not type 2 diabetes and a whole slew of other bad things would be my future so needless to say I'm excited about this info to say the least! Oh and I'm seeing a new endo in two days please let him be open minded!

Mia

Busy lately and boy do I wish I could rem to get a keyboard that works right posting would be way easier! So Sat was a big dinner out and I decided to just have fun, I must say food wise I didn't eat bad but I had to many adult beverages lol and well that led to not so good choices the next day as I've always needed to feed a hangover so two days of not so good but today has been clean clean clean! I avoided the scale so tomorrow we shall see, I'm a tad scared but I made not great choices so must pay the piper! Till tomorrow.

Day 7 vlcd

173
+1.5
-5.5 from load

Ok so I had a big long post for this day and I've no clue where it went. Dont know why the gain, I got some sunburn so it is that or tom is trying to shots show, could happen hcg brings it on sometimes, whatever it was I was bloated all day still feel like I am.

Day 8
172
-1
-6.5 from load

Today was hot! I walked around the zoo all day with kids drank ALOT but barely peed, I'm totally expecting retaining weight tomorrow maybe I will get a surprise. Short and sweet today I'm beat and have work in the am, have a good one! Oh before I'm off anyone know why blogger is down so much the past few days?

Wth?

Um where did day 7 go? Ugh it was long to ok I'm at the zoo with the kids, small ice cream break (for them) guess I will figure that out when I get home.

Day 6 vlcd

171.5
-2 from yesterday
-7 from load

Yay 2 I'll take it that is awesome wish I could do that everyday! So heres my routine I'm doing hhcg it worked for me last time so I figured I'd go with it again. I take 2 tsp of the brags cider vinegar (raw with the mother) 3 times a day along with oregnol 3 times a day, it kills off bad bacteria and yeast and I'm a serious carb/sugar addict so it should make withdrawals and cravings easier. The first round I did I actually got ill from withdrawal this time so far so good, the cravings are another story but I'm sure alot in my head. I'm fine all day but have noticed being hungry at night before bed which I hate cuz thats a battle of will. So I wonder if the vinegar is helping hmm.

My sis and I took the kids for a couple mile bike ride, it was pretty leisure so it shouldn't of been to much in the way of over exercising, lord I hope not cuz I'm fairly certain we will be doing that daily. I worry about my daughter I see myself in her, she has a 50/50 chance of having pco not good odds. Of course I'm informed where as my mom had no clue what was wrong with me I'm still scared she does and there is no comfort in that. She is already leaning toward chubby and I need to keep her moving cuz I dont want her to struggle.

So it looks as if the wow cow was fine, I won't be doing that daily but it's nice to know if we take the kid for a cone I can treat myself without really cheating even if it feels like it cuz boy is that stuff good, can't figure out how with no chemicals but who am I to complain. It's finally getting nice here, we live near buffalo ny and I was beginning to think summer wasn't coming but we may actually get the pool open this weekend, pool season is the best we don't have to go anywhere everyone comes to us and its like one big party all summer. Yet another reason to get on with this releasing lol I can't have everyone thinking ouch what happened to her. I think I'll clean the house and plant my flowers today, have a good one!

Day 5

Ok well I want the pink background but its stuck on black, may have to get on the actual computer lol. So here is where I'm at I started at 178.5 after loading start day of vlcd was 5/5 but I wasn't very good on moms day so today day 5 of vlcd I weighed in at 173.5 so I'm -5 post load. I was 174 pre load. Ugg I can't believe I've got so much to loose or that I did this to myself again, I feel overwhelmed. I'm 5'5 and I do carry weight well so I'm wearing an 8 to 10 but I hate it and if I hear one more time that I was too skinny and needed to gain I might loose it, I wasn't too skinny, I didn't look sick its just everyone was use to my being bigger. Everyone keeps saying I dont look big ok maybe I dont but I dont feel good and I'm overweight for my height period! So here is the place where I need to hold myself accountable I'm hoping this will help, when I get my head right I do very well but I've been having trouble getting my head in the game, I have some stressors in life that aren't helping also. I've been reading others blogs and they are very inspiring!

I wonder what a serving of wow cow would do? Its all natural and is 50 to 60 calories per 4ozs seems to me it could replace my strawberries as a dessert, I know some of you will say dont deviate at all, I tend to be one of those that can go slightly off and still loose, well last round anyway. So heres my experiment I will have it instead tonight and see how the scale does tom. I've been right on all day and got plenty of liquid between water and green tea so cross your fingers! Heres a link check it out http://paradiseyogurt.com/WOW_COW_PY.html

Here we go

Well here I am I'm having issues figuring out my blog so bare with me. Most of my internet stuff is done via my droid so I'm having a few issues. Well about me, I've always had problems with my weight, its always been a struggle I have an under active thyroid and PCO (polycystic ovarian syndrome) which the basis of is insulin resistance. I suppose I'm one of the lucky pcoers as I can actually loose weight if I try and I dont weigh 300 plus lbs which is fairly common. I gained a lot of weight with my second pg , well to be honest I started at 180. After I had him I went home at 240 I was so unhappy being that heavy that once I healed I started to exercise, I started small and just upped it when it got easier over about 8 months I managed to get to 170, 170 is a weight my body loves and one it is always trying to be at. Well I got myself a trainer and with him and a good diet got down to 147.5 but I still had fat on my belly and inner thighs at this point I was working out 2 hrs a day 5 to 6 days a week 3 of which with a trainer so I went on hcg 5/09 and I made it dwn to 128! That was awesome I loved my body, felt great and could relax a bit with the gym. I maintained great that is until I quit smoking 10/10 and I guess it messed up my new good metabolism, that and poor eating on my part but hey I quit smoking thats great! What isn't great is all the weight I've gained, I feel gross, nothing fits and I dont want to go any where. I tried a few times to restart a diet, but my head was not in the game. so here I am ready to try for real.